False Weariness

Lord,

Please help my body to be calm, even as there is movement all around me.  And, if it be Your will that my body not be calm and continue jerking, them give me the patience, focus, and mental and physical stamina to function.

Let me see your Light, especially when I am tempted to see only the darkness around me.

Help me to have steady hands when the time is right for steady hands.

Lord,

Help me to stay awake today and to do your work.  Help me to see You all around me so that I am not tempted to focus on myself when I should be focused on doing your work for others.

Help me to look for You even when I don't immediately see You.

Help me to be your humble servant, Lord, for I am always so very tempted to be my own servant.  Sometimes I feel battered when I serve You.  Help me to see that this is nothing more than a temptation to turn from you and not true weariness.  It is an illusion that I must see for what it is.

Thank you for this day, my Lord and my God, lover of my soul.

Amen

Anxiety

Lord,

Thank you for helping to ease some of my anxiety by having my EEG show no seizures.

Help me now to focus on You, on my work, and on the people around me.  I will still work to find out the causes of these jerking spells, but I know that everything will be ok.

Everything will be ok because You are with me and looking after me.  

Keep your fire burning brightly within me.  I will remember You are always with me. 

I will take your presence withinme and around me to help calm my anxiety. 

Amen

Focus

Dear Lord,

Since I'll have my head down and working for longer than normal today, please give me colors.

For when I see colors, I see You.  Who else can make such colors?

Lord, let me be awed by your creation.  When I am awed, I forget about my muscle spasms.  :-)

When I am awed, I must think about how the work I do is valuable because just as You made colors, You made me.

Just as You made colors, You made those around me.  All those around me.  Not just the people I like.

You made everyone beautiful, even when I don't see the beauty.  I must still treat everyone as beautiful.

I must always remember that You died on the cross for the sake of everyone's salvation, so I mustn't ever judge myself more worthy than another.  We all make choices and then make more choices and then make more choices.

Lord,

Help me to stay focused today.  Focused on my work.  Focused on my driving.  Focused on staying awake.  Most importantly, focused on seeing You in others.

Lord,

Hold my hand today.  I am in need of a Companion today, especially as these jerks/spasms continue to get worse every day.  Hold my hand and let me focus on You rather than the electricity everywhere in my body.

Amen.