Keeping Watch

Lord,

Please help me with the ability to keep watch. I need to keep watch for You, but I also need to keep watch so that when darkness approaches, I can see with opened eyes the temptation for what it truly is.

Help me to seek this task with humility.

And help me to never be so stuck in my journey to think that I must always know the answers.  Let me have the understanding of when to seek help from others, no matter how hard it might be to do so.

Amen

Your Will

Lord,

Help me to accept your will, even when I don't understand it.  If it be your will that I have spasms and move in a way that is foreign to me, then so be it.

If it be your will that I shed unnecessary parts of my life that I think are wonderful but that are not pleasing to You, then so be it.

If it be your will that I shed expectations about what I'm supposed to carry with me on this journey of life, then so be it.

If it be your will that I don't understand your will and must wander around in the dark for awhile, so be it.

If it be your will that I fight sadness, loneliness, and fatigue, so be it. 

But when it is time and when it is your will that others help me, I pray for the humility to accept others' efforts. 

Amen

Goodbye

Lord,

Help me to say goodbye to a friend who is leaving my life.  Help me to let go when people tell me they need space.

Help me to listen to people and not just act and react the way I think they need help but rather to listen to what they are telling me regarding what they want or need.

Help me to discern what You are calling me to do.

Thank You for your forgiveness and healing.  I need it often for I fall often.

Help me to stand against darkness and put it behind me.

But if and when I fail, for I am a flawed person, help me to continually come back to You for healing.  Help me to come back to You as soon as I can, to seek You and to call out to You when You are near.

Help me to see You and to look for You everywhere, especially in other people around me.

Amen

Fatigue

Lord,

Please help me to look to You when it seems that darkness surrounds me and is waiting to crush me.

Let me see that you are there, waiting for me to reach out to You so that You can pull me through the darkness into light and comfort. 

Lord,

Help me to open my eyes today.  I need to open them not only to see You, but simply to open them.  As my body is feeling fatigue even before I rise for the day, help me to rub the sleep from them and wake. 

Amen